–C L I C K–
Today is September 5th, 2006… This is still be mark on my calendar as my Mom’s birthday and her passed away 6 years ago…. Too bad ya…. l still remember at that moment…. l was still in university in Yogya, and all my sisters, they were still in school and brother were in Yogya, he didn’t get the new job after he was resigned… My Mami and Papi were in Sorong, Papua. We were make phone called to our Mami in the morning.. said HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Wish you were happy and get the best in the years ahead…. Hah.. thats all… coz in the night arround 9 pm, its mean 11pm Sorong time…. my Papi called us that Mami was die…. how come????? She was got heart attack. Many thought after that…. could be Mami was so tired prepare all her celebration and for Papi as he was promote into the higher level in his company…. How sad huh? Sad and happy in the same time…..
Have you seen the movie title "CLICK" guys? It seems nice if everyone has the remote control as Adam Sanddler has …. we can forward or skip the moment that we do not expect… and even more we can sitting and enjoy the moment that we do expect. If we all know when is the last time that we will meet the people that we love…. if there was a chance that l can meet my Mami walking into our house in Yogyakarta…. and bring us many gifts and even she cook the best food that we ever tasted….. I couldn’t find "pindang meranjat", "buntil talas", "kering paru-kentang" and "otak sapi goreng" as good as my Mami made. I missed that….
If I were know the last time l met my Mami was when she came to visit us in August, a month before she died…. l’d love to make her very happy…. driving to mall or traditional market… she always compare the price for meat, vegetables…. into Sorong.. "wow here is so cheap… I could buy everything and make my own market" , she said and smiled… Play with me and with our dogs… At that time we have Papa Vici, Benji, Bingo and Bonny…. They were so nice…. always make me laugh… Damn, I missed all those moments… We were go to our other house in village to see our rambutan and durian plants… we grows those plants just to maximize the empty land that we have and made there will the place for us to relax… in the small place and quite… with the fresh air…. I never knew that was the last time l met Mami…. Because after a month later, Mami came not walking and smiling and talkactive… no…. she was in the baggage in the plane from Sorong to Yogyakarta … by ambulance brought into our house and we prayed for her…. many people at that time giving us support and pray.. and l was appreciate that…
If there is a second chance … to fixed that all… to make my Mami proud of me… even l was not graduate yet from my university… Oh ya.. thats made me crying she couldn’t came to my graduation party in Sabha Graha Pramana, UGM… she really wanted me to graduate faster and she can enter that building.. that was new building, the big one in Yogyakarta at that time…. So sad… And now.. after 6 years… l believe she is seeing me from above… and l wish she is proud of me…. This is me… and l learn from that… l won’t miss a precious things in my life.. with my family… Thanks God.. l have still more time with my Papi, sisters and brother…. Even some of them were married and get their family… But here l am…. Will give you the best that l can…. And wish that someday I have my own family…
Only time will taking us to this life… birth-grow-old-and then die… Its up to you to facing this life… forward it and you will miss many things… that never coming back…. or you keep it very good.. as its fragile… We’re all learn from life, aren’t we?
September 5th, 2006 at 11:33 pm
So sweet memories Nez, i belive she must be proud of you and always look after you from above. That is the secret of life. JBU