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Nggak terasa udah masuk tahun 2008. Well, its just make me realize it’s reflect me what l have done for last year, wat ist betekken voor volgende jaar… plan en dream…

Saat pergantian tahun aku di kota tercinta, di "kota kita" heheh kata temenku…

Yogyakarta, yang selalu bikin kangen…. Beruntung juga malam tahun baru tidak hujan dan bisa ikutan dengan lautan manusia untuk merayakan malam tahun baru di Tugu… Kembang api, terompet … becak, pejalan kaki, sampe orang-orang di dalam mobil keluar semua di jalan…. Aku baru saja dari rumah menjelang jam 12 malam tgl 1 Januari 2008, di rumah sudah kumpul makan-makan dan minum… Jarang sekali di rumah bisa kumpul semua, tetapi keluarga kakakku sudah kembali ke Jakarta. Moment yang jarang terjadi, Natal tahun ini kami semua bisa kumpul.. heheh dan aku bisa bertemu dengan ketiga keponakanku… centil, cerewet dan badung… aduh-duh… 

Kezia udah tambah gede, centil… Ocha.. mmm yang aku inget suka banget nangis pas mandi… heran… Trus Mas Nugie tuh, ampun badung banget.. mungkin krn dia ponakan cowok satu-satunya….

Sempet juga nih kita karoeke, ya nggak semua sih, si kucil2 itu mumpung bisa ditinggal, jadilah kita keluar bareng… makan lesehan abis itu…. Aduh suasana Yogya itu loh yang nggak bisa diganti dengan suasana di kota manapun.. apalagi Jakarta, dimana aku tinggal sekarang…

Dari semua moment malam tahun baru ini…. I am so thanks God, that l still have time to spend this time with my family…. that’s so priceless…

Dear blog…

Aku capek nih… ampun kerjaan kok ya gak selesai. Plus some of new regulation in the term of SINERGY in my company makes me crazy. Well, what can I do?? Just follow the damn rules…

Now… after finish make this work.. wish that l can back home.. lay back in my bed… listening to the music.. read a novel that l’ve not finish yet… and sequel of ROME that l borrow from my boss… With the hot chocolate, and some snacks…. Thats normal l think… but in fact l know that’s hard to be done… now at 5 l am still in my office… and the road of my office bloody hell crowded.. so.. it might be take me about 1 hour to get my ass from here… and l believe will reach my place around 7.30 pm. Then.. as always.. l couldn’t continue my novel or the ROME dvd either. 

I don’t know what’s wrong with me… time is going so fast… and l was entrap in my routine… hiks-hiks… any good idea to make a new fresh air here??? 

Jakarta, where the air is not fresh yet crazy!!

Rabu malam (11/29) menjelang jam 11 aku udah siap-siap tidur.. Abis capek seharian tetep aja kerja trus malemnya karena suntuk ya belanja-belanja trus ngopi di plangi ditemenin sama Lydia.. Ya, secara menjelang my day, so l am preparing myself, stay in my room.. ritualnya ya doa Thanks to Jesus yang sudah memberikan hidupku, berdoa juga juga buat my Mom… sesudah itu tidur dong sesudah melewati jam 12 malam, Nov 30th.. yeees… l switch off my mobile.

Paginya sebelum berangkat kerja, nyalahin hp.. eh ya ampyun penuh aja gitu sms voicemail… hehe.. berangkat kantor juga penuh email, messenger, juga FS hehehe.. telpon juga nggak berenti.. yah seneng aja

Di kantor gue nggak konsen untuk ngerjain… hehe.. untungnya emang cuma ada 1 meeting after lunch. Jadi sempet deh potong2 kue. Kangen suasana rame, rebutan makanan di kantor gini.. hihihi.. black forest-nya laris manis.. sekejap udah abis aja.

Satu lagi there was a surprise in the morning.. l just wondering there will be a gift? hehehe… hoping… And guess what?? At 8.30 l’ve got flowers from my prince charming hihihi… l called him back said thanks so much for the flowers… and my friends teasing me, hehe and he was heard about that my friends yealing and laughing arround me…

Well, l have a special dinner with him at night… at Kembang Goela resto… very nice place, Indonesia bangeeet… the interior is nice, the food are good… He is like Indonesian cuisine, Rijst Pitoeng hehehe.. markisa, lumpia semarang, kroket, kangkung hotplate and take ice cream for the dessert. Op eten .. full… gimana nggak gemuk ya, udah malem makannya banyak hihii…. Maunya lanjut have some drink.. but instead tomorrow l am not going to work better we back to home.. Prepare for long night ya, for tomorrow night… Friday night is now… yep… gue mau minum apa ajah hehehe tipsy dikit gak papa deh.. hehehe… party hard!!! yeahhhh…. Yup thats all my day… ^-*

Where is the love? Hard to find… my friend telling me "jangan dicari nanti dia akan datang sendiri". Lah, kalo gue tanya sampe kapan? No body knows?

Huh, there is one guy, treat me very nice lately, We go out in our leisure time, mostly in the weekend… got dinner and drink. Sabtu lalu ke nikahan temennya, di salah satu hotel di Kuningan. Ketemu dengan beberapa temennya. Nice, he introduce me to all of his friends… wah… mereka nggak jauh2 obrolannya dengan pekerjaan, coal mining… Selesai dari wedding party ternyata tetep mereka masih mau ngobrol, akhirnya kita pindah ke longue for chit chat. Well, gue emang gak tau banyak tentang coal, tapi terbiasa dengan minyak, gak jauh sih.. dan biasalah  ada tender-tender dan beramah tamah dengan colega (inget zaman bokap gue dulu juga begitu) … untungnya aku nggak terlibat jauh dengan pembicaraan mereka, salah satu ada yg membawa istri dan kami pisah meja, ngobrol yang ringan2 aja deh…. safe by that ibu and her daughter. Biarkan itu jadi pembicaraan laki-laki. Bukan main gender, tapi aku nggak mau terlihat konyol aja di depan mereka. Hehe yang tidak berkepentingan dilarang masuk!! gitu deh…

Di waktu yang sama, di belahan dunia yang lain… seorang laki-laki sedang bekerja keras untuk meyakinkan bahwa dia bisa melakukan apapun to win my heart. Dia sering menelpon hampir setiap malam dan kadang2 waktu di kantor. Is he really real? Semalam dia menelpon dan akhirnya pembicaraan kita sampai kepada titik dimana aku tidak mudah mempercayai hubungan yang dimulai dari internet. Dan akhirnya dia menangis.. and thats makes me hurt…

Ada yang salah disini… yang sudah nyata di depan mata, area yg sama Jakarta, dan yang di belahan dunia lain…. Yang satu sudah melakukan apapun, treat me nice.. introduce me to his friends tetapi tidak pernah terucap satu katapun mau kemana kita? Ya dia cukup mature mungkin kata2 tidak dibutuhkan… cukup dengan sikap dan perbuatan bahwa dia care dan baik banget. Yang satu lagi di negara lain… cukup intens dengan berbagai alat komunikasi.. tetapi kami belum pernah bertemu. Dia sedang mengusahakan waktu luang dan dana untuk mengunjungi saya.

Apa bener yang dikatakan temen saya, bahwa "the one" tidak harus dicari nanti dia akan datang sendiri. Nah sekarang salah siapa kalau aku menjalani semua kemungkinan yang ada– yah kalo tidak dijalani kapan kita tau siapa sebenarnya "seseorang itu". Ini bagian dari menunggu.. atau bagian dari yang dicari. Aku bukan orang yang suka menunggu!! (siapa yang suka???) Who knows??? Take it easy.. hahaha menghibur diri sendiri yang sedang gundah…..

Today is September 5th, 2006… This is still be mark on my calendar as my Mom’s birthday and her passed away 6 years ago…. Too bad ya….  l still remember at that moment…. l was still in university in Yogya, and all my sisters, they were still in school and brother were in Yogya, he didn’t get the new job after he was resigned… My Mami and Papi were in Sorong, Papua. We were make phone called to our Mami in the morning.. said HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Wish you were happy and get the best in the years ahead…. Hah.. thats all… coz in the night arround 9 pm, its mean 11pm Sorong time…. my Papi called us that Mami was die…. how come????? She was got heart attack. Many thought after that…. could be Mami was so tired prepare all her celebration and for Papi as he was promote into the higher level in his company…. How sad huh? Sad and happy in the same time…..

Have you seen the movie title "CLICK" guys? It seems nice if everyone has the remote control as Adam Sanddler has …. we can forward or skip the moment that we do not expect… and even more we can sitting and enjoy the moment that we do expect. If we all know when is the last time that we will meet the people that we love…. if there was a chance that l can meet my Mami walking into our house in Yogyakarta…. and bring us many gifts and even she cook the best food that we ever tasted….. I couldn’t find "pindang meranjat", "buntil talas", "kering paru-kentang" and "otak sapi goreng" as good as my Mami made. I missed that…. 

If I were know the last time l met my Mami was when she came to visit us in August, a month before she died…. l’d love to make her very happy…. driving to mall or traditional market… she always compare the price for  meat, vegetables…. into Sorong.. "wow here is so cheap… I could buy everything and make my own market"  , she said and smiled… Play with me and with our dogs… At that time we have Papa Vici, Benji, Bingo and Bonny…. They were so nice…. always make me laugh… Damn, I missed all those moments… We were go to our other house in village to see our rambutan and durian plants… we grows those plants just to maximize the empty land that we have and made there will the place for us to relax… in the small place and quite… with the fresh air…. I never knew that was the last time l met Mami…. Because after a month later, Mami came not walking and smiling and talkactive… no…. she was in the baggage in the plane from Sorong to Yogyakarta …  by ambulance brought into our house and we prayed for her…. many people at that time giving us support and pray.. and l was appreciate that…

If there is a second chance … to fixed that all… to make my Mami proud of me… even l was not graduate yet from my university… Oh ya.. thats made me crying she couldn’t came to my graduation party in Sabha Graha Pramana, UGM… she really wanted me to graduate faster and she can enter that building.. that was new building, the big one in Yogyakarta at that time…. So sad…  And now.. after 6 years… l believe she is seeing me from above… and l wish she is proud of me…. This is me… and l learn from that… l won’t miss a precious things in my life.. with my family… Thanks God.. l have still  more time with my Papi, sisters and brother…. Even some of them were married and get their family… But here l am…. Will give you the best that l can…. And wish that someday I have my own family…

Only time will taking us to this life… birth-grow-old-and then die… Its up to you to facing this life… forward it and you will miss many things… that never coming back…. or you keep it very good.. as its fragile… We’re all learn from life, aren’t we?

Dear Friends,

The earthquake happend on May 27th, 2006 in Yogyakarta and the nearby was very terrible. Yogyakarta where my father and sister live…. l can not imagine… the city was badly destroyed.. The quake cause severe demage to homes and buildings. I took a pic shows the Gramedia Book store was destroyed.. at Jl Sudirman.

Thanks God, l am still meet my father and sister when l reached home in Sunday morning. Me, Jenny and my brother were driving car back to Yogyakarta. I bring some food and water into my car. I could not contact them in Saturday all the communication was down. But l was lucky in the afternoon my father texted me, to inform me that they were ok. My father and sister are safe. My house is still ok.. and my carport become a emergency kitchen for my neighbor and people arround. Some my our neighbor was moving out to their family in other city. Because Yogya was still follow by tectonic moving. There was an issue about tsunami following the quake, and that was the terrible moment.. people was panic trying to safe their family…

I am very sad to see Yogya.. most part of this city was destroyed. And l can not just sitting here, in my office. I am trying to help those people… l need to manage deliver some logistic and food supply to people there. There are homeless and need the primary need. So, please friends, no matter how much Rupiah that we’ll collect is very value for them. You can contact me for this case.  And please pray for dead people.

Jakarta, May 30th, 2006

See this picture…. its a beautiful blue sea of Padang Bai, Bali. I always like to getaway… even in the short time, such as in the weekend. I was to Bali in the early  May. The weather is nice, not much rain. It was rain when l reach Bali in the friday night and in the sunday morning. But still l was going swimming in the sunday morning in the beach. Coz, its just across of my bungalow… its nice….

I was go diving and snorkling in saturday morning… thats perfect day…. and the under sea view of Padang Bai was so great… I feel like l want to touch all the fishes… the coral everything… ahhhh…. I know it’s taken 3 hours in the sea, and l enjoy it… And it makes me tan… hahah secara gue bukan bule gitu, yah gelap deh kulit gue…. But thats okay….
I meet new friends there.. they are from Australia and Holland… we were in same boat. We made into a pair to dive… we were so amaze with those treasure…

The name of our instuctur is Suker… he is a little bit crazy :p But he is nice one… very patience to show me how to organize all those stuff… huh heavy ya… but l enjoy it…

Wish l can go diving again… in other time, in other place… l’ve got snorkling in Anyer, but it was not good as Padang Bai…

Bali, May 6th, 2006

Ujan-ujan begini enaknya dengerin lagu yang melo-melo… Diem di kamar… buka jendela…. liat kota Jakarta yang syahdu abis… Hahaha bayanginnya sih… syahdu begitu bareng kekasih hati :p hahaha bukan sama temen jalan gue… Udah ke tempat yang romantis, The Valley, ke Puncak, ke 21 eh bareng Dabuz lagi atau bareng Jenny… hehehe… Atau sohib jalan gue yang lain.. Ipung, Tenong, Mba Dina… ya elah… kemana para lelaki itu yah???  Temen gue yang lain, Dewi bilang, aduh kemana sih para lelaki yang baik hati dan tidak sombong itu… Jojoba sih enak, tapi kalo lagi melo dan syahdu gitu pingin juga…
Nah, pas lagi diem di kamar menikmati hujan gerimis.. Kok ya kebetulan lagu yang aku denger itu dari Renee Oldstead, "A Love That Will Last"  … DAMN!!! Kena banget…  Tapi kalo inget filmnya "Princess  Diary 2" pas lagu ini aduh… romantis abis deh….

"A Love That Will Last"

I want a little something more
Don’t want the middle or the one before
I don’t desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last

Say that you love me
Say im the one
Don’t kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don’t do drama
My tears don’t fall fast
I want a love that will last

[Chorus]
I don’t want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don’t even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So call me romantic
Oh i guess that must be so
Theres something more that you oughta know
I’ll never leave you
So don’t even ask
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

[Chorus]
I don’t want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don’t even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So theres little more that i need
I wanna share all the air you breathe
I’m not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love the love that last
Always
I just want a love that will last
Want a love that will last

Wake up this morning l turned on my radio… Hey today is Mother’s Day in Indonesia…. I almost forget if there is still "HARI IBU" . I was so busy with my work and bought the decoration for Christmas last weekend. The annoucer talking about HARI IBU, and I was surprised…. suddenly I missing her…  When people talking about Mama-Ibu-Mami or whatever they call there making me sad… really l miss that time… It always makes me sad …

Back into my teenage time, when l was in high school. It was the very best time with my Mami. She cooked the best food for us… I only eat and eat the best taste of her food. hehe and you know what? I don’t care with my weight at that time  hehehe I can’t do that again right now… Not because I can not buy everything that I want but its because I can not find the food as good as my Mami made. And I can’t make it by myself either… I can cook but it’s not as good as she made.

I remember everything she did for me, teach me to drive a car… hehehe that was a memorable time. She was very good driver. So, is not right if woman careless driving a car, ok?  Teach me playing tennis, organ, but she didn’t teach me to study well. I hate math. My Papi did it… hehehe… She knows how to handle in the bad situation… very smart Mami.
I missed the time to get along in the car with her… for shopping, playing with our dogs, discuss about the hair do and fashion… everything…

So, it is more than 5 years when she passed away… but she still deep in my heart. Hope she already stay with those angles… singing in the glory heaven…

Jakarta December 22, 2005